I Deleted my last post after reconsideration

I deleted my last post "Running after.......a dream" because i realized that this post was dont have any sense for people like me who have lot of Dreams in life. I was demotivated after unfair treatment by my University. Last night my friend lalit pinged me on chat the some parts of our conversation is here..
Lalit :blogger bhai
aaj tera blog padha
4 saal mein pehli bar after engineering
bada frustrate hua pada hai
Me: ku kya hua
yar samaj sakta hai tu
hard time for me
Lalit :are yaar
aayega tera time bhi aayega
Me: bas tu hai na ...tu bhi na...
tu khus karta rahega sale
3 idiot k Rancho ki tarah apne dosto ko
Lalit : What you wrote on your blog, I am not agree with your post. You are demotivating readers and your friends who love to read your posts.
Me: This post was just for .....
Lalit : What just for ..??
Me : Aiwee hi yar....
Lalit : What aiwee hi..after reading your blog my mind is blank now ..thinking about you.
Me : Its just a blog post...
Lalit : What just a blog post, you are demotivating people and its wrong ...i am not agree with you and your post. Even i was demotivated after reading.
Me : Wait 2 minutes ( Reading my last post again )
You are right i realized my mistakes accepting and deleting this post now.
Lalit : I am happy now. You are not only one who is puzzled with mismanagement of Education system. We all know about it. You need to move your minds towards different side. Dont waste your time to think about future. Do something good for be happy like watch movies, videoes, join gym do something extra and be happy. Dont care about people that what are they thinking about you. Live your life with hapiness.
Me : Lalit thanking you for motivating me...
Lalit : post something good like videoes , Jokes and anything happening which have source of smile ...

Conversation end here and i deleted my last post from my blog..

I found my self lost in thoughts and lost in time. when task is failed it seems like i am "losing the race of life".At time of failure i am rapidly losing control on myself , my mind and my soul and after reconsideration of my fault i have decided to kick the darkness of light till it bleeds in daylight everytime. Hope my life will take U turn and God will bless me for success in life.....

Bengalooroo...

hmm..bangalore...in 2 words,  food and pubs.i know it for a fact that everybody here is sick of my "i dont like bangalore" song, and i am sure all of us will be so much happier if only i could go back to North !!*sigh* granted, that this place does have its good points too, and has accepted me with open arms, still, i cant help but miss home :( if asked to list out my anti-blr points, my top grudge is that this place has a serious dearth of party places, if u dont consider all the pubs dotting the streets.if u want to go out, and do some headbanging on good ol' rock numbers and come back. sounds fine for a week, but after that, someone like me really starts to miss the rocking bollywood and punjabi numbers, to which i could sing along and sway with abandon!
my second grudge is fm radio :( being the radio aficionado that i am(rather... was), it was a cultural shock for me to listen to Radio Mirchi in kannada (sakath hot magath..it's hot)!!all the stations i listened to rarely in jaipur form my main listening now, be it radio city or big fm. only fever is the same as before.. good 40 mins of non stop music :) hmm..ok, there is a new station here 91.9 fm, radio indigo does play international music , and is my favorite station for now.. so i guess i have actually nothing to complain about ;)

but i do so miss my Rajsathani  frens!! my bus/auto/pg/sec 10/jaipur circles.. endless fun :( ok, granted that i do have chits  frens also now, plus my Jaipur's frens whom i have met up with here, plus my Community  frens *grin*. Moreover, my Jaipur's frens are here   now mostly, and lot of drifted apart for higher studies .. so now instead of one phone call to talk to a whole group, i have to place so many calls(  )... in a way, it was good that i came when i did!!
in conclusion, i still vehemently "dont like bangalore" for all the reasons listed above, and no matter what all reasons are given to the contrary, i wont change my views!!

Anwesha's bday !! 2/1/2011

Hello everyone ,

                        As i promised in last post i will be going to post about Anwesha's birthday celebration. Ok after new year night wakeup early in the morning on the date 1/1/11. Calling to anwesha's father ...jingle bell...jinge bell(caller tune)

Abhi bhaiya :Hello..who is speaking?

Me: Happy birthday to you Anwehsa .

He: dude anwesha have her  bday on next day. you are wishing in advance dont forget wishing my daughter next day. and make ur presence next day before 2pm. And will take lunch and dinner with us.

Me: Oh its ok. but my cellphone reminding me from last night for bday of anwesha and sorry i am unable to come for lunch.

He: dont make me fool  and dont try to reject my offer. Otw its against ur di's respect.I dont know anything you will be comming finally and no more exquses.

Me:Ohk i will try . But not giving commitment.

So made call to meenaxi di (Hey madhvi di is inviting me on anwesha's party for lunch and dinner. what to do? ).

Meenaxi di : you should to go. They are not others.

Me: But is it ok to be close very early .? what do u think? She is your friend and i am your brother.

she: whatever dont think so much go and enjoy. This is a good chance for you to meet people of bengalooroo. go go and enjoy.

Me: ok. Thanx.

Made call to dady . what to do ? should go for lunch or not?

dady: go.

so finally next day wake up 9'O clock . The phone is ringing . Rise up...rise up dont fall down again..(my cellphone ringtone).

Me: Hello who is speaking. Abhi tak soye ho kya.

she: Me madhvi . Me:yeah hello madhvi ( thinking like some one calling from job consultancy) .

she: i am madhvi di . uthja abhi. And come before 12'O Clock i need some help for managing party.

Me: ok . i will.

so finally took bath and purchased a present for Anwesha from "Mom & me" mall.

Now time is 1:30pm and finally in Anwesha's home sweet home. Di offered luch with tikkad(bazra+jo+chana=One type OF Rajasthani chapati) , dal and carrot halwa which was yummy and become more delicious due to their affection and love for me .

So now bhaiya asked me to download some theme and dancing music from internet for bday party .I did. And now di gave me a task that suggest some ideas for games for kids and for adults. I suggested musical race, truth and dare, exchanging game, baloon dance, bolly, spoon race etc etc. So finally started to decorate roof by baloons and ribbons after 1Hr roof is completely ready for bday celebration.

party started with kids games and some Rajasthani snacks samosa , kachori, waffers , chocos. After 8pm we decided for cake celebration. Anwesha did it with knife and now she is completed 6yr of her life. we all wished her with claps and bday theme  music. Anwesha offered cake (black forest ) pieces to eveyone. after celebration we offered dinner with dominos pizza and colddrinks. after dinner everyone started dancing on partymix music  which is downloaded by me ( call me, rise up, saturday night etc.)with baloon dance steps. The whole atmosphere become completely ryhtmic. finally party ends with ice cream and cold drinks. Return gifts are given to kids by madhvi di. In the end susmita di sung a song for kids. Everthing was well managed and everyone praising for this celebration. Party was awesome . Finally di packed some snakcs for me and bhaiya dropped me at my destination. Gave thanx to bhaiya for inviting me and make a part of this lovely family which was unexpectable for me in present. On that day i undestood that how social life have a importance in our life. Have to write lot of from bengalooro...but now i want to take bath.  thanx for appreciating me for my blog post...more experiments underway, the results will be displayed as and when concluded... abhi phir se fun time , so plenty of opportunity to experiment :D

tab tak, stupid  ABHI signing off...

cheers:

Abhi

A Journey to dream city Banglore !!

Once again Sorry Guys and Gals! Did not post anything for quite some time now. But am back from the hibernation.

Have lots and lots of things to write, but it would really take some time to express every thought in my mind right now.

Ok so finally i am in banglore in hope of  full  of expecatation and  with lot of  desires. Planned to came here from past two month but due to corrupted indian Railway system failed to get reservation easily.

So after lot of frustration decide to choose different route from kota to Mumbai(Dadar) via Golden temple and from Dadar to Banglore by udyan express in adition to kota to mysore -Banlore route. so finally got reservation in waiting for 14th december 2010 which confirmed after lot of mindteasing on IRCTC system. Want to say thanx to MR. Raja shah jain  my jiju and Chits (Abhinav) my friend both who helped me for reservation.

SO from 14 noon to 16th morning i was in train cant express train expreince here.

Finally reached at madhvi di home from Banglore-SBC to jp nagar 5th phase via prepaid auto taxy (seems quite funny na!! prepaid auto taxi damned crazzy !!:D). But here in banglore this is system which managed by Railway police of karnataka for control the  spontaneous loot by auto union.

Ok after 11km travel finally i found out the home of madhvi di. Madhvi di whom i never meet before (Looks like a educated and higer class lady ) recieve me with affection. It was quite surprising for me that  i will gonna stay in banglore  tomadhvi di's house(who was not in my relation she was just only my sister's friend.)till then  i wouldnt found a suitable regidence like paying guest for me. finally entered in house Flat no. 203 which was well furnished everything was well  managed. Took bath and did little conversation with di met to  her cute baby samyak (6 months old). Everything was excited for me even you can say its my good fortune that i met to these lovely people. ok finally she offered me  yummy  and tasty lunch with full of affection . Before meeting to her i was lil bit afraid for there reaction on me (because i was similar like bin bulaya mehmaan , jaan na pehchaan). but feeling relief after meeting to her she was quite affectionable for me and treating me same like her lil brother. Oh thank you god for helping me and giving me such fortune. After eating food i took some rest for half an hour and become active atonce for finding a suitable pg for me because on the same day madhvi di and  Abhishek bhaiya ( her husband ) had reservation for 4 days trip to kodaknal hill station and rameshwaram thats why it was more necessary for me because i am hesitating to live alone in their house  ,Made Call to one of my senior and told them that i am in banglore please arrange a suitable  accomodation for me . He replied in my favour that come in jp nagar 5th phase i will show you pg. So finally meet to him and saw his pg accomodation which was in quite funny situation so decided to search out myself and started walkin on the roads of banglore and found some pumplets for mens pg made call them and saw some accomodation which was giving me imbalance feel (Dirty and room size like bathroom). Finally tired back to di's home drink water and told her to my exact situation. She suggested me for do google (Great idea by a educated and aware  lady ). So According to her suggestion did google find some accomodation made call them but all are once again quite funny because they didnt know hindi and english they only knew kannad a local language of karnatka. So once again decided to walk around streets once again made call by lookinf puplets which  was attached to light poles.

OK JOURNEY BEGUN.....tring tring with kannada ringtone like rama rama rama re....

Hello who is this ??

me: hello i am finding suitable pg for me . can you show me i am standing here.

A man came on spelender after waiting of some time....

Hello  me veeru tum pg search karta.....

ME: Yes sir.

He: ok lets come with me on byke. came to dollar layout .

(He shows me a good room which was well furnished  also he promised me for internet and tv in room which was 2 seater.I like rooms and decided to move here from dis house but still have some confusion like transportation, food and etc etc )

Veeru introduced me to some guys who were already living in pg. they told me about transporation and nearest restorant for food. so i asked veeru to drop me once again at di's home which was on only 1/2km distance. Veeru droped me at my destination seems like he was a gentle man (otw aaj k jamane me apna petrol kaun bigadata hai ).

Now in di's house told them that i m confused for pg.i  want to move for guest house. She replied me dont move stay here its your own home and when you will find then move. but i am forcing them to move. So after half and hour both husband and wife forced me to stay in house  alone . I am accepted  there proposal and stay hold to house in night. night was spent with good sleep because  i was tired from 4 days. in the morning i wake up 8 am and once again call to veeru to show me the pg again . The gentle man once again recieved me from my destination and i gave him fianal reply that i am comming in the evening . finally he told me rent and some conditions which was apply on all .

I was agree decide to move in evening . and then shifted to my pg in evening a destination of my dream and desires. Food was quite good for starting days after that i bored with these south indian dishes like idli, dosa, upma etc etc because i got smail of coconut oil from all these products which they made. Still eating same food. :D.

ok guys want to sleep now the time is 2.28 pm. soon updating one more post about anwesha's bday .

till then keep rockings...

cheers

Abhi

Updates from last some days ...

A snapped internet connection, some work and lots of movies...
all these kept me away from blogs for almost a week... and no one's asked me "Where are you!!!??":((*puppy eyes and sad face!!*)
lolz.. :D hehe

Last few days have been good, all my best friends.. our core group are back in town... and I have been either on phone or in each other's houses for most of the time... anything and everything under the sun keeps getting talked about...including our age-old fav topic discussing who has/had/will have a crush on whom.. hehe...
it's really great coz it's not always masti or time pass.. we learn a lot from each other.. about our careers and who is doing what and what is the next best thing to do...

I m benefited the most as far as sharing collection on the pc is concerned.. my hard disk is doing a rounds of everyone's home. and in just a few days my collection of music/movies/software has more than quadrapuled!!!!

Oh i can go on like this forvever.. hope everyone's been fine and rocking and having lots of fun!!

Closed...

love it when people love me... i love it when I know I made someone smile, i love it when i hear someone patiently and try to help, try to make them feel better... I love it when someone smiles at me... i love it when they say i mean my words... yes, i love it all... but am I the person everyone thinks I am? am I the person who is genuine, sincere? If I am then why can I not share a word of what affects me?

I have always had this problem. I just can’t ask for help in distress... I can’t speak my heart when I am sad... I can’t cry... oh how I hate it... I just can’t cry... there come no tears in my eyes, no matter how excruciating d pain...

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Hey guys, don't worry I am all right... sometimes d mind does conjure strange thoughts... this was one of them.

CROSS ROADS

Life is still the same... But situations and people are not.... You are often in a situation where you are unable to decide what to do... You cannot analyze what is correct and what is not... who is truthful and who isn't.... what is good for you and what is not....

Old memories haunt you... refuse to leave you... no matter whatever you do.... You are stuck in a weird situation and donno what to do..... You feel like running away to a place where you are all alone and nobody to bother you..... Always lost in thought... Alone even with people around you...

You are at CROSSROADS where you dont know which way to go.... LOST n ALONE.... Unable to decide which way to go ..... Never know where the path you have chosen might lead you to.... But you know, you have to go on.... coz LIFE goes on.... even if You dont want to.....

somethings stupid..

my experiments :)

* seeing the sunlight filtering thru a glass marble, a mesmerizing sight!
* seeing the fullmoon through a gold ring from the hostel terrace, the way the light disperses is fascinating!
* spending an hour beating coffee only with a spoonful of water, to check where the whiteness come from.. must be the sugar, coz it remained brown :(
* balancing a pencil on my finger, to check if the sharpened end is nearer to the center of gravity or not..it is! (many a pre-exam night has been gainfully employed in this experiment)

more experiments underway, the results will be displayed as and when concluded... abhi phir se fun time , so plenty of opportunity to experiment :D
tab tak, scientist ABHI signing off... * bustling back into my den/lab*
*big STUPID grin*:D

AM BACK!!

Sorry Guys and Gals! Did not post anything for quite some time now. But am back from the hibernation.

Have lots and lots of things to write, but it would really take some time to express every thought in my mind right now. Also, there would be some lag while I catch up with my regular visitors.

This blog is very dear to me, and I really want to nourish it with my thoughts and ever-so-precious feedback that people provide on this. Thanks for regular support! I hope you would not let the support die...

Life is Good

Hi Life

I know you've been doing good, so won't ask you the perfunctory questions as in "how be you" et al... I also know nothing much has been happening at your end, but that is what has surprised me... I am amazed to see that contentment finally creeping into you... I honestly don't understand how suddenly you've come to even like things which you earlier thought you didn't have the capacity or the will to do... But yes, I see a change... A change that really makes me more happy coz I know it will benefit you in the long run...

Looks like finally you seem to be learning, gaining a focus which is so required at the crossroads you currently are... I am happy to see you move, shift your priorities to where they should be... You still have a lot to learn & you sure will... But I am glad that today you accept your problems & are willing to counter them...

But, I know you through & through, I just hope you don't loose interest as you usually do... I've seen you do that on many occasions before, wish this time you are willing to go that extra mile & ready to accept criticism for what you do wrong & don't depend much on others for making yourself feel good about you... Things don't always go the way you want them to... So try & savour whatever comes your way, it's worth the experiment...

Anyways, there's a long way to go... I am there with you... Wish you a successful journey...
Take Care

How life changes...

A while ago,
just a while... I was with you
& now here I am
a thousand miles away,
away from what was life to me...
and yet I live...

Dear Jaipur,
You've been my city for the past four years... You adopted me, kept me in your folds... I lived a full life while I was there... Savoured your flavours old & new... Your feel, those meandering roads up & down the hills, will stay with me... And so will many other things which for now won't find a space here...

Memories are strange... Took you for granted when I was part of you... But when I am no longer with you, you form part of so many fond memories... Like all other things, I realize the value of the good times I had when they are past...

Today I am closer to things that I wanted to be with... But you win some, you loose some... And so I sit here typing, the dense fog invites me outside...

Can I say, I am back to where I belong... I do not know this... But all I can say is that this step is in a direction closer to my dreams... Wish me luck...

:)
With immense effort, ABHI

two different people

Am I just writing cause I am bored?? Really don't know now. There was a time when I blogged like crazy. Am I going back to square one? Who knows .... maybe.

We are two different people
In very different worlds that never meet
And yet we like each other's company
And take care of each other's needs

How is that we understand each other so well
And no one has known me better than you
How is it that I have never felt happier
Than when you are beside me

You love to keep talking
I can spend all my time listening to you
You can be very moody
I have the patience to stand in the rain and let the storm pass

Sometimes you dress up like a gypsy
Something that is quite alien to me
But deep inside it makes me smile
Cause that's something I have always longed to do

I can't win an argument with you
Nor did I ever want to
But this is something I cannot take
That two different people cannot convene

It's like two sides of a coin
Very different, very apart
And yet really they are the same
And wouldn't the coin be useless, if both sides turned out alike ?

Ever wondered...

(And I'm not cribbing here, just stating a few observations;)

Why when you are waiting for Bus A, Buses B would come in every minute and when you happen to wait for Bus B, the Buses A would flow by, and when you catch an auto both will overtake you?

Why everybody comments just on the latest post of a blog? Even the last but one fails to get a new reader's attention...

Why we fight with the neighbourhood vegetable hawker over a rupee but gladly pay a premium in some restaurant without batting an eyelid?

Had planned to stretch it to some more questions, but the mind refuses to think

There we are again!!!

Just when I thought, I was where I wanted to be, the games begin & a cloud of uncertainty prevails...

It amazes me how the past few years of my life have changed me... And now it can't seem to be undone...

Contradictions galore... The mind just can't seem to decide where it wants to go & what it's willing to shell out in the bargain... Everything comes at a cost, I know... But why???

Things do get lonely at times...

I've hardly believed in love... For me it is too ephemeral a feeling to go beyond a crush or a clumsy infatuation... Call me over-the-top pragmatic or whatever but I've realized that it takes a lot to see yourself in love... Maybe love is over-hyped or maybe it isn't meant for me... I do not know but I cannot ignore the value of companionship... I guess it is this yearn to be not alone that drives people to seek love... Often I've read that love is not about finding the perfect one, but in finding perfection in the one you love... too idealistic if you ask me... And yet I wonder at times when I'm alone if love would have filled this void... I remember when I wanted to know the difference between love & friendship, people quickly pointed out - it was s e x... So, if a person isn't interested in that or is getting enough of it; can friendship suffice for love? I'll never understand...

I'm seriously out of my senses, is all I can say...

I hate to push things... I believe they should take their natural course... This laid-back attitude has me cost me many times before but I can't seem to be otherwise... It takes a lot from me to move out of my equilibrium, to try & change... Yet somehow to fill in the gap between desires & reality, change is a must...

With immense effort...

ABHISHEK

Finally Came To Kno!

Something in my life for the first time i felt,

like taken aback from all my strength,

Some feeling struck me for the first time i guess,

like pushed down upon to the deepest darkness,

Tears rolled down my eyes for the first time i knew,

that made me almost cry not actually knowin what for they are,

Joy abonded my days for the first time i've seen,

that left me pain worsening my condition to death,

Searching i sat all the day for the first time as never before,

not even knowing for what i was searching for,

Thinking i was all my way for the first time i think,

not even knowing what to think about,

Dreaming became my routine for the first time in my life,

knowing even that they don't come true,

Worrying i stay all throughout for the first time ,

knowing nothing wrong will happen...

Time slowly passed away,

Days started going on,

One by one leaving me all alone,

once again bringing all these things back,

i groped all my way,

wishing to kno,

why actually they happend

&

what actually they mean

Finally making me helpless,worried,lonely n hopeless...

Came the answer from my heart saying...

"I MISS U DEAR FRIEND"

once again

oh no!! it seems like just yesterday  that our exams got over,and already v hv the new datesheet in hand..wonder when all this is going to end..or even more importantly..if i m going to last that long! as one of my fren says.."exams hi to hain,kaun-sa kumbh ka mela hai jo 12 yrs baad aata hai.."..so y worry, and btw this time is our final sem and have only 4 papers ! then again..there's the father's of all positive sayings.. "examiner marks hi to katega, gala to nahi!" (the examiner can do only so much as cut marks, not our throats!!) hmm..that's another positive way of looking at exams! hope i can just remember all this when the D-day does arrive!

optimism ...(continue post 99)

HELLO ,

  last time i wrote a post on "OPTIMISM ,REALISM  and PESSIMISM..." and one of my frenz or blog visitor swati suggest me for more explanation so i am writing here more..not sure that this is too much good ..i love when visitors read my post and mail me for expecting more from me for write better ..

OPTIMISM
Am in search of!!!

Its absolutely situational and short lived. The art of positive thinking they say, and at times the art of consoling n lying to ones own self –that’s what I say.
Ask those optimists, have they tasted the bitter failure, if yes then must have experienced the joy of success as well.

What if u find yourself in dark unending tunnels.
Of course you’ll try to tunnel out of the dark; but how long …there’s a limit to everybody’s patients …………
I’ve been trying though haven’t yet succeeded
But yeah!! The dark has tunneled through me, turning me into a pessimist.

CHANGE- that I’ll never was what I was determined of…
Though outwardly I haven’t yet ; the same old happy-go-lucky natured, confident, strong, ever smiling character for those around me, but I can feel changes cropping inside me.
One, who never believed in luck, destiny, has now stopped believing in hard work ‘cause hard work is rewarded at-times n not always. It’s your fate….how long it takes to journey till you reach that one desired end…
What matters is not talent but luck, what matters is not dedication but the final result.

EXPECTATION-is the root cause of all heartbreaks,
I being an ordinary man can’t stop expecting though.

HAPPY ARE THOSE WHO EXPECT NOTHING AND WORK FOR SELF-SATISFACTION.

- A philosophical statement with not an inch of practicality in it.

HAPPY ARE THOSE WHO ARE OPTIMISTS.

Being of a technical field, am into the habit of categorizing everything into distinct sections…………so are OPTIMISTS, exactly of 3 kinds-

First are those- born in luxury, riches, for them SUCCESS is a thing to be bought.
Second, being the luckiest ones (in my view), their life has been a perfect balance of bright summers to gloomy autumns to romantic monsoons. It’s they who say-keep faith and you’ll surely get it…everything will someday be fine…

I envy you, your fate my friend…

Third being the liars, sad at heart…. knowing nothing’s going to be fine but still consoling self saying goal is hiding behind the next U-turn.

I won’t lie, and the first two categories isn’t for me…

Pessimism (as you’ve termed me to be) gives me happiness, yes it gives!!!…’Cause it has taught me the way to live life to the fullest in no matter how small the triumph be…

PESIMIST-one who looks to the darker side of everything, every happening, but then the little success that they get gives them eternal bliss…this one hope gives me the inspiration to continue counting the shadows………..there again I’m hoping, expecting………….

Yes, I can’t stop expecting, but I’ve changed …I’ve started expecting the worst ……that’s the reason they call me pessimist…
WILL YOU TOO?????

cheers
Abhishek

post no.100 and a question to myself

Hello,
The most important things with this post is that i completed 100 posts on my blog  and this is a great achievement for my self . i never thought that i can write ..and people will  read my posts . But from 2008 many peoples support me for writing ..and appreciating me with there ideas and comments . thanx to all of u and i love u alot .

A recurring question??
Why do I write a blog? Why should I waste my time writing, when I am not sure whether nebody will read this? Why, at all?
Is this wastage of Mental Effort? No, not at all.
Reason being......

" A Blog a day,
keeps the psychologist away;
since writing a blog,
clears the smog and does not let your mind clog;
of the ideas that are crazy,
and this makes your day as lovely as a "daisy"!!

Hope this answers the question :-)

Will keep on writing more!!!!!!!

Till next time,
Good Bye

OPTIMISM,REALISM and PESSIMISM....

"Think positive and be optimistic"...a very oftenly used phrase..isn't it...but then sometimes i ponder upon one thing and that is does being optimistic drags me away from being realistic...or being a little realistic makes me a little pessimistic...because...reacting in certain situation..any hard u try to be optimistic u r bound to be affected by certain factors that force u to think negative and it effects u ...some say this is being realistic..but i have never been able to judge is it realism or is it some sort of pessimism..overcoming the optimism...
I am a very optimistic boy..but when i really want someone who is talking to me to feel positive about things...i get the statement u r not being realistic...ofcourse i dunot want to live away from reality but what i want is whenever i want to think what can happen in a certain situation i want myself to just imagine a positive outcome and that too without ignoring the actual situation or certain real life factors..there drags in a little pessimism..when u cannot simple put away the thought"agar aisa na hua aisa ho gaya tou"..so what is it exactly...pessimism or a little realisation of the things around....well i think i cannot really conclude about it because i am surrounded by all sorts of people so the best way out is judging everything and then making some sort of prediction and trying to make it a positive one...
living in fantasy world is ofcourse not welcomed but then living in a real world and still thinking that whatever happens happens for our own good and just putting in true efforts is what is right that is what i feel....:)

cheers
Abhishek

Hppy Marriage Anniversary to mom dad

Love and marriage
has been a long and difficult road.
Faith has been your carriage,
God has lightened your load.
Together you have progressed
to your 29th year,
with the words of God
whispering in your ear.
Your one life together
has you both united,
but the joys to come
have just been sighted.
I love you both
for being young at heart
and making an oath
never to depart.
You belong
side by side,
your passion strong
with nothing to hide.
God bless you two,
Mom and Dad.
Happy Anniversary!

song of the moment : dil ku mera shor kare ..idhar nahi udhar nahi , teri or chaley